虽然在大学里对学生会很不感冒（我想主要是因为团委和学生会有管辖关系本来就是件很恶心的事情），但是这一两个月来，我越来越感受到这样一个团体的重要性。
Case的CSSA (Chinese Students and Scholars Association)在这两个月为我们新生提供的帮助真的是非常的巨大——从接机到提供临时住宿，从在共享里发布很多有用的指南到回答我无数弱智问题——这一切看似简单其实非常繁琐。
一定要说声“谢谢”，相信这种互助互爱的传统会在我们的团体中一直延续下去。
下个星期的这个时候，我应该在太平洋某一点的上空，前往美利坚的路上。
现在，该准备的大多准备好了，剩下几天基本是碰碰亲戚、碰碰朋友。
严格来说，这次出行和离开温州去昆明并没有太大的区别——现代的交通和通讯工具早已使地理上的距离显得不是那么重要。
但坦率地说，心里还是感觉到一些不安和紧张的：面对太多未知难免紧张——短期的，长期的。
不过，从小到大，面对不确定性、面对挑战，基本都坚持过来了；虽然偶尔会碰的头破血流。
放宽心态想，远离家乡自己生活未尝不好，感受异国氛围未尝不好，结识新朋友何尝不好，有自由何尝不好。
那就开开心心地走吧。
今天在查美标的电源插头时，学到了一个很好玩的知识[1]。
In electrical and mechanical trades and manufacturing, each of a pair of mating connectors or fasteners is conventionally assigned the designation male or female. The assignment is by direct analogy with genitalia and sexual intercourse; the part bearing one or more protrusions, or which fits inside the other, being designated male and the part containing the corresponding indentations or fitting outside the other being female.
意译：
在电气和机械的贸易及生产中，互相配对的连接器和固定器通常会被分配命名为“男性”或是“女性”。这种分配方式是通过类比外生殖器以及性行为而来的。拥有一个或多个突起物或在内部连接到另一方的被命名为男性；而拥有对应的接口或是在外部连接另一方的被命名为女性。
不得不再次感叹一下英文的丰富多彩。
FOOTNOTES
1. 英文原文来自：http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gender_of_connectors_and_fasteners↑
这是我在Nothing But the Truth中最喜欢的一段台词，来自Mr. Burnside在最高法院上为Rachel Armstrong作的辩护
Mr. Chief Justice, and may it please the court.
In 1972 in Branzburg v. Hayes, this court ruled against the right of reporters to withhold the names of their sources before a grand jury, and it gave the power to the government to imprison those reporters who did.
It was a five-four decision. Close.
In his dissent in Branzburg, Justice Stewart said, “As the years pass, “the power of government becomes more and more pervasive.” “Those in power,” he said, “whatever their politics, want only to perpetuate it, and the people are the victims.”
Well, the years have passed, and that power is pervasive. Ms. Armstrong could have buckled to the demands of the government. She could have abandoned her promise of confidentiality. She could have simply gone home to her family. But to do so would mean that no source would ever speak to her again, and no source would ever speak to her newspaper again, and then tomorrow when we lock up journalists from other newspapers, we’ll make those publications irrelevant as well, and thus we’ll make the First Amendment irrelevant. And then how will we know if a president has covered up crimes? Or if an army officer has condoned torture? We, as a nation, will no longer be able to hold those in power accountable to those whom they have power over. And what then is the nature of government when it has no fear of accountability?
We should shudder at the thought.
Imprisoning journalists? That’s for other countries. That’s for countries who fear their citizens, not countries that cherish and protect them.
Some time ago, I began to feel the personal human pressure on Rachel Armstrong, and I told her that I was there to represent her and not a principle. And it was not until I met her that I realized that with great people, there’s no difference between principle and the person.
In 1972 in Branzburg v. Hayes,this court ruled against the right of reporters to withhold the names of their sources before a grand jury, and it gave the power to the government to imprison those reporters who did. It was a five-four decision–close. In his dissent in Branzburg, Justice Stewart said, “As the years pass, the power of government becomes more and more pervasive.” “Those in power,” he said, “whatever their politics, want only to perpetuate it and the people are the victims.”
Well, the years have passed, and that power is pervasive. Ms. Armstrong could have buckled to the demands of the government. She could have abandoned her promise of confidentiality. She could have simply gone home to her family. But to do so would mean that no source would ever speak to her again, and no source would ever speak to her newspaper again, and then tomorrow when we lock up journalists from other newspapers, we’ll make those publications irrelevant as well, and thus we’ll make the First Amendment irrelevant. And then how will we know if a president has covered up crimes? Or if an army officer has condoned torture? We, as a nation, will no longer be able to hold those in power accountable to those whom they have power over. And what then is the nature of government when it has no fear of accountability? We should shudder at the thought.
Imprisoning journalists? That’s for other countries. That’s for countries who fear their citizens, not countries that cherish and protect them.
Some time ago, I began to feel the personal human pressure on Rachel Armstrong, and I told her that I was there to represent her and not a principle. And it was not until I met her that I realized that with great people, there’s no difference between principle and the person.
嘴里的两颗智齿大概长了有四五年了，一直觉得很纳闷为什么还没有完全长出来。因为并不影响日常生活，也就没有太在意。
这次出国在即，考虑到美国牙医是在是太贵，不得不在临行前对口腔做一个检查。这一查才发现两颗智齿已经横着长了，医生建议立即拔牙。纵使我对拔牙这件事有千万般恐惧，美国高昂的牙医费用还是使我不得不屈服在拔牙钳的淫威之下。
先是在口腔的右侧打了麻醉（后来才发现，其实整个拔牙过程中最痛的就是这一针），不到10分钟，我的整个右脸就彻底失去知觉。医生很残忍地用针在我的牙龈上狠狠地戳了戳，得知我已经彻底失去痛觉了以后，满意地开始端详我那长歪了的智齿。由于我担心医生会惨无人道地手脚并用拔掉我那顽固的牙齿，整个手术过程我都是紧闭着双眼，并时不时应付医生“痛不痛”的询问。只记得几分钟后他老人家很满意地对我妈说“看，牙根很完整，手术很顺利”。嘱咐了一些注意事项后，便让我离开了医院。
嘴里咬着一团棉花，透过鼻腔可以闻到那不知道是血腥还是什么的恶心气味，就这样，我足足忍了一个小时才把嘴里的血和棉花吐掉（当时已经不在口腔医院了，貌似吓到了不少人）。
大约是在四个小时以后，也就是晚上的7点左右，右边脸逐渐开始恢复知觉，先是能感觉到鼻子了，紧接着是上嘴唇，下嘴唇，然后，OUCH！牙龈！原来是那么痛！！！医生锤子的猛烈冲击力显然给我的头部留下了些不良后果，整整一个多小时，我都能感觉到太阳穴和牙龈的剧痛——而且估计是受神经损伤影响，我的右侧扁桃腺开始肿大、发炎，使我不得不服用了很多消炎药。
这是我七八年来第一次拔牙，嘴里很明显能感觉到少了一样东西；回想起小时候拔完牙总喜欢舔伤口，舔着舔着就发炎了，于是又只好去医院打点滴。现在舌头还是能偶尔触及伤口，却已经不敢去舔了——下周还要拔第二颗……
前两天一直在杭州，闲来无事，便重温了一下电脑里Richard Dawkins的三部纪录片。
2006年在Channel 4播放的Root of All Evil
2007年推出的The Enemies of Reason
和2008年的The Genius of Charles Darwin
Richard Dawkins堪称是21世纪腰板最直的无神论者，自从去年经别人推荐读了他的The Selfish Gene之后，就迷得“不能自拔”。
原来一直只是因为“从小就被教育没有神”而不信神，从某种意义上说，这和Dawkins所说的Childhood Indoctrination没有什么本质上的区别：同样是缺乏scientific evidence和critical reasoning。从去年看过这三部纪录片后，又陆陆续续看了一些关于宗教和反宗教的书和纪录片；虽然还说不上是很了解，但我显然比较满意现在这种“有理由而不信”的状态。
事实上，我觉得不论是无神论者还是神论者都应该找机会看看Dawkins的书和节目：对于无神论者，这是一次对自己“为什么不信”的检验；对于神论者，这也提供了一次分析自己信仰根源的机会——当然，坚信faith就是faith而不需要任何reasoning或是scientific proof的人就算了。
P.S. 最近在读Dawkins的The God Delusion，很奇怪，不知道为什么，老爷子一改平日淡定的态度，采用了一些几乎是“咒骂”的词汇来反对宗教；希望读完全书后能找到答案。
回想上周，送走了若干人，被若干人送走一次：面对离别，有哭得稀里哗啦的，有走得嘻嘻哈哈的，还有我这种比较平静的。
发现自从结束了大一刚开始的那段陷入回忆不能自拔的阶段后，我对离别这种东西看得就比较开。前两天写了一篇《今天》，回忆了一下过去四年中的一些零碎之事：过去的四年诚然是值得纪念的美好四年——如果是美好的，那就没必要伤心郁闷了。自己面对离别基本是这样的心态：想见的该见的迟早会再见的，不想见的就算一辈子不见也无妨；严格意义来讲，同样的场景100%不可能再次发生——既然不改变是不可能的，也没必要因为这个而感到伤心难过了。
Elisabeth Kübler-Ross写过一本叫做 On Death and Dying的书，介绍了著名的Kübler-Ross model：
1. Denial: The initial stage: “It can’t be happening.”
2. Anger: “Why ME? It’s not fair!” (either referring to God, oneself, or anybody perceived, rightly or wrongly, as “responsible”)
3. Bargaining: “Just let me live to see my child(ren) graduate.”
4. Depression: “I’m so sad, why bother with anything?”
5. Acceptance: “It’s going to be OK.”[1]
我这两天就在想：可能这[2]对离别某种程度上也是适用的吧。
在自己能力内尽最大努力改变，对不能改变的部分就顺其自然吧。
FOOTNOTES
1. 引用自:http://www.xiaolai.net/index.php/archives/214.html↑
2. 原模型最初是为了说明人们是怎样面对诸如死亡、疾病等悲剧的↑
今天机场回来经过金花，想起了两年前和阿三狠毒吃的那个很难吃的温州猪蹄。
今天机场回来经过那条通向春城路的小弯道，想起了一个多月前那次毕业旅行。
今天机场回来经过金马碧鸡坊，想起了前年豆豆请客时阿三和大权的父与子。
今天机场回来经过南屏街一带，想起了和胖子、狠毒、阿三在那条街上留下的无数脚印和money。
今天机场回来经过青年路，想起了以樱花而出名而我却从来没有机会去看过的圆通山。
今天机场回来经过一二一大街，想起了我最爱的清华书屋，不远处的翠湖英语角。
今天机场回来经过建设路，想起了那家曾经一年去一次、这学期去了6次的新建设影院；想起了歇脚小栈和好吃的抹茶红豆雪花冰；想起了让狠毒和阿三喝高的 Vodka饮料；想起了那家巨恶心的爵士岛咖啡；想起了四年前第一次和父母走过这条路时所感受到的失望；想起了曾经的新范、一心堂、狗肉米线……
今 天机场回来经过学府路，想起了这里曾经是双向通行的；想起了剥削了阿三无数顿的沙县；想起了那家当年因为我问了“为什么没有猪肉”而差点杀了我的清真拉面 店；想起了曾经觉得难吃无比的哈哈汤包王；想起了大一的时候摆在男生院对面的河南鸡蛋灌饼；想起了雀巢那年喝醉了在路上发飙；想起了那家在给我理了一个巨 难看的锅盖头之后搬走了的冰点前线；想起了那个阿三和豆豆XXX的公交车站；想起了在西港剥削了沈继伟三杯丝袜奶茶；想起了原来虹山东路上的清真馆；想起 了天厨妙工；想起了那个当年大权被偷300元的车站；想起了大三时一群人喝醉酒在路上的撒野；想起了常常一同走着这条路去上课的大权、阿三、狠毒、马蒂 尔。
今天机场回来经过男生院大门，想起了那个和狠毒打过很多次但没有一次赢过的网球场；想起那个大二时发球害的刘丽 芬摔倒的羽毛球馆；想起那些挥洒下无数汗水和少许泪水的篮球场；想起沿着那条路走下去的食堂：牛肉饵丝、汽锅鸡、已经消失N久的东北红烧肉；想起了大一大 二时常光顾的洗衣房的大娘（虽然她一点也不老），想起了当年打卡时马蒂尔抱怨我走得慢；想起了当年大权和狠毒差点因为珍珠奶茶打起来。
今天机场回来经过8幢大门，想起了门口标着ABC的三个破信箱；想起了去年K歌2点回来的翻墙而入；想起了“淫荡”的淘气；想起了那群讨厌的老挝或是越南人；想起了住过一年的714
今天机场回来进入710，看到了这间住了三年的曾经像狗窝现在是狗窝的寝室；想起了已经离开了的孙东权和张锦水和还没有离开的马崇；想起了昨晚是全寝室人员最后一晚睡在一间房；想起了昨晚阿三CS打了第一、大权却打了最差；想起了几天前疯狂的啤酒和拍照。
……….
曾经我是那么坚信我将头也不回地离开这座我曾经无比讨厌的城市，而现在，却不是这样。
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